yesterday at around 8:20 in the morning an earthquake wake me up,feeling a bit tired i thought at first i was just kind of dizzy or something but not because when the shaking lasted for about a minute i already shout and started to freak....yes,i shout and i cried calling names,i'd like to run but i can't because i was still on my summer sleeping clothes(and you don't wanna know,how i look sigh*).i kept on calling names but everyone was rushing to reach the first floor so,without a doubt and hesitation i grab a small blanket and wrap it on myself,oh my!heavens forgive me co'z i really don't wanna die on earthquake most especially if im not wearing any decent clothes huh!i always freak everytime there's an earthquake because i got this kind of phobia since 1999 when taiwan was hit with a very strong earthquake and i was on the 10th floor of a hospital building since then i can't calm myself whenever there is a quake even just a short shaking. i told myself i won't die because of the earthquake but nervous breakdown.
i was shaking and crying this morning for an hour,and everyone tried to comfort me telling me that its okey nothing to worry,oh ya???who knows??after 4-5 hours there's still an aftershock and that adds more to my fear,fear of dying without my family around,i told myself what if something happen to me here who will takecare of me,what if i die???how about my body???what if,the building collapse and something happen???i don't want to think all of this...it's just i couldn't help it.... everyone has their own fear and my greatest fear is to die because of disaster or any accident,i don't want to die ugly(no joking!)please don't laugh....since,i was a kid i always asked my mom to check my clothes on the night if it is pretty or not co'z i told her just in case i die im pretty wearing a beautiful clothes,funny right?but,its true and until now i have this dream that when my time comes i just like im sleeping peacefully...i wish God will give me this simple wish of mine,and so i really,really don't want to die of earthquake and worst without a good clothes on me.
thank God im still alive and thank you that no one get hurt,thank you for my life and for the life of all the people living in this country,thank you for this day that i passed one more time- my greatest fear in life,thank you for protecting me today and for the next next day.thank you for giving me more chance to see and experienced the beauty of your endless creation.thank you...i asked you Lord to please takecare of me while im away to my family. thank you!!!