why is it sometimes saying "your sorry" was a bit too hard?....since i am living here in taiwan i've noticed that saying "sorry" and "thank YOU" is quite easy for the local people it is like they're just saying a very common word not unlike with a lot of people i know in my country including me when i said sorry i really meant it and one thing for sure i will never ever give my sorry that easy if i know i done nothing wrong well,for some reasons(work related and i really hated it)i forced myself to learn how to say sorry in a very rare situation(not that i don't say sorry) but in my heart i am so sad because i know it's not my fault and i just need to say that word because that is the only thing they were waiting TO MAKE EVERYTHING CLEAR...it's like once you've said it to them then it's all gone(even it will hurt you so much) don't get me wrong here i am not a bad person and i know if i need to say that word but what the heck!!! do i really have to say sorry to them everytime?feel's like losing my dignity(sorry bou't that feeling) do you think it's necessary to say sorry even on just small things like you forgot to say or give your number when you change it and they called you and can't reach you then later on they will confront you and will make things big just because you did'nt share your new number to them huh!...i believed it's my private thing and i can choose the people i want to share it with and give it on my most appropriate and convinient time?....
well,not for them cause they believe THEY OWN YOU and they can demand anything to you....sigh.... did i mention i am not that bad and forced myself to JUST SAY IT TO FORGET EVERYTHING and bring back everything into place..... very simple word that is so hard to say,can bring pain to someone who is not good enough to accept defeat or demand(whatever you may call it),a word that may kill your feelings and crushed your dignity into one.....NO,no...i don't want to think it that way i was raised to be understanding and to have a lot of patience by my parents and thinks that now is the right time i could use those hidden treasure of mine lol! recently,one of the people at my work was becoming more and more impulsive and demanding...and i was hoping it will end soon before i could use all my banked patience lol!not to mention loads of stress she painting at me and never ever say and give my "SORRY" to the upper position for not so important case...so i just hope things will get better sooner not soon....
if not i'll just bite my arm and say it over and over again if that is what they wanted me to say..lol!(just like singing merry christmas song...hahhhaha)
good thing there are beautiful things like sunrise and sunsets to keep me going just like these photos of sunsets capture at cheng ching lake looking far to the nine-cornered bridge...!
