~sorry seems to be the hardest word!!!

why is it sometimes saying "your sorry" was a bit too hard?....since i am living here in taiwan i've noticed that saying "sorry" and "thank YOU" is quite easy for the local people it is like they're just saying a very common word not unlike with a lot of people i know in my country including me when i said sorry i really meant it and one thing for sure i will never ever give my sorry that easy if i know i done nothing wrong well,for some reasons(work related and i really hated it)i forced myself to learn how to say sorry in a very rare situation(not that i don't say sorry) but in my heart i am so sad because i know it's not my fault and i just need to say that word because that is the only thing they were waiting TO MAKE EVERYTHING CLEAR...it's like once you've said it to them then it's all gone(even it will hurt you so much) don't get me wrong here i am not a bad person and i know if i need to say that word but what the heck!!! do i really have to say sorry to them everytime?feel's like losing my dignity(sorry bou't that feeling) do you think it's necessary to say sorry even on just small things like you forgot to say or give your number when you change it and they called you and can't reach you then later on they will confront you and will make things big just because you did'nt share your new number to them huh!...i believed it's my private thing and i can choose the people i want to share it with and give  it on my most appropriate and convinient time?....

well,not for them cause they believe THEY OWN YOU and they can demand anything to you....sigh.... did i mention i am not that bad and forced myself to JUST SAY IT TO FORGET EVERYTHING and bring back everything into place..... very simple word that is so hard to say,can bring pain to someone who is not good enough to accept defeat or demand(whatever you may call it),a word that may kill your feelings and crushed your dignity into one.....NO,no...i don't want to think it that way  i was raised to be understanding and to have a lot of  patience by my parents and thinks that now is the right time i could use those hidden treasure of mine lol! recently,one of the people at my work was becoming more and more impulsive and demanding...and i was hoping it will end soon before i could use all my banked patience lol!not to mention loads of stress she painting at me and never ever say and give my "SORRY" to the upper position for not so important case...so i just hope things will get better sooner not soon....

if not i'll just bite my arm and say it over and over again  if that is what they wanted me to say..lol!(just like singing merry christmas song...hahhhaha)

good thing there are beautiful things like sunrise and sunsets to keep me going just like these photos of sunsets capture at cheng ching lake looking far to the nine-cornered bridge...!

~~~there's always a sunshine after the rain

its all.....

Your my sunshine after the rain

your the cure against my fear and my pain

'cause im losing my mind when your not around

its all...its all because of you

your my sunshine...o yea

baby I, really know by now

since we met that day

you showed me the way

i felt it then

you gave me love

i can't discribe

how much i feel for you.

i said baby I, should have known by now

should have been right there whenever you gave me love

and if only you were here

i'd tell you

yes, i'd tell you

chourus:

your my sunshine after the rain

your the cure against my fear and my pain

'cause im losing my mind when your not around

its all....its all because of you

oh, oh yea, yea

honestly,

couldn't be with me

like it was before

neither less or more

because when i close my eyes at night I realized that no one else

could ever take your place

I still can feel

and its soo real

when your touching me

kisses endlessly

its just a place in the sun

where our loves began

i miss you

yes i miss you

Chours

if i knew how to tell you

whats on my mind

(make you understand)

then i'd always be there,

right by your side

BY:98 Degrees(thanks for the lyrics of this song!)

NOTE:photos taken at cheng ching lake after the rain and i chose this song
by 98 degrees to express my feelings at this very moment.....i just can't find any words to say how i am feeling right now and think this one fits just right for me LoL....if you like to see the  previous entry before i took this pictures you can just SCROLL DOWN and view it,that's the same day i took all the photos....hope you will enjoy  exploring my world at cheng ching lake.....thanks for dropping by.......

~~blue*

 

fukuo islet @ cheng ching lake

 

red ceiling and posts

red ceiling and posts with the round cement table to put things like  food and ......

to sit when you get tired of wandering the lake or when you feel like taking photos and pose like a princess LoL!

it's a bit gloomy that day because of the rain it's only 4pm in the afternoon taiwan time....but,it didn't stop me from wandering other parts of cheng ching lake till the rain stop before dawn....lol!

can you see that bird?i was trying to catch it by my cam but can't make it bigger though....(click it to enlarge)

that is the rain remains from the rain that day

                                              entrance to the fukuo islet

 

the sky is getting darker so i decided to leave the place and promise to comeback again next time lol!to explore more of myworld and find more red for my  ruby tuesday  also to  find lots and lots of watery views for my watery wednesday......what a great fun for outdoor activities......

see you again......

another sunset @ cheng ching lake (2)

A gem is not polished without rubbing, nor a man perfected without trials.

If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow.

dream.....believed.....and be thankful.....

"i like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past."

for many months now im trying to get many  sunset photos as much as i can but sad to say we are blessed with so much rain from above and it only ended last wednesday....thank God....atleast i could breathe better now  than those rainy days sigh*.why am i so sad when it is raining so hard?well,i don't have any idea too...it is just happening to me that everytime the rain is pouring non-stop my emotions change,as if im going to be sick....maybe because im away from my family or maybe homesickness is visiting me or it could be those past that i wanted to be erase in my mind and in my heart,those past where only those rain can tell all the pain and sufferings that i have been through...i may sound so emotional but yes...i do have a lot of pains that i win back in my past life and it is the rain that keeps me reminding....i wish to be strong  and face the new challenges of life-to forget it all and dream for a new beautiful beginning ....i was hoping to fight with this sadness about rain,and let it be my guide to travel for my future....life is beautiful and i must thank God for the rain because some part of the world doesn't have any rain at all,i will fight for this feeling and i believed i can as i do believed that dreaming big is for free.....

posted for skywatch friday, weekday photos

....a lake for a cause????

Cheng ching Lake, formerly named Dabei Lake, is located in Niaosong Township in Kaohsiung County where i lived. It is the largest lake in  Kaohsiung and one of the most popular tourist attractions in southern Taiwan. It was originally developed from wetlands into a reservoir to meet the need for water for industrial use. Later the lake focused on its landscaping and opened to the public as a tourist destination in 1960.According to my boss when Chiang kai shek was still alive he used to lived at cheng ching lake and no one is allowed to enter the place.There are many attractions within the lake. Two main attractions are the nine-cornered bridge   and Jhongsing (Restoration) pagoda (i will try to get a decent photo of it next time)...... here are some of the views of the man-made lake...

 

the artificial bird made from kitchen utensils

click to view the artificial birds that  i thought  before was a real birds

a lake that supports the water need for industrial use

                                                   residential buildings on the other side of the lake

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my first skywatch adventure at cheng ching lake....

CHENG CHING LAKE  is one of the largest lake and most popular tourist attraction in kaohsiung it is located at NIAOSIUNG township 15 mins drive from my home  and since it is just very near to my place we used to take a walk in here very often but i never take pictures and never in my 5 years here to bring my camera with me only this summer that i realized i've wasted too many years not recognizing every beauty in front of me at cheng ching lake mybe its because i came here so often reason that i no longer feel the excitement of capturing any possible subject to see.well,not anymore because beginning today you will see more of cheng ching lake beauty from my blog...i'll share with you every single details in terms of photography that i may have chance to see again in this lake from birds to flowers from sunsets to sunrise and from old buildings to historical ones and i hope you will come back and join my adventure as i will begin to explore this lake....funny right?it's been 5 years eh but they say "it's better late than never"....  and for my first adventure let me share to you my first skywatch at the lake taken all in just 1 time from 6pm to 7pm taiwan time.

sunset and the tiny plane(click to see the plane)

this is the back of the famous grand hotel kaohsiung,the oldest hotel  ever built(i'll be posting some of my pictures of this hotel next time)i took it while im at cheng ching lake

sunset is almost gone....at the back of that building is my home

cheng ching lake with the fading sunset

look!!!!i got this very beautiful moon after the sunset

...and this is the famous pagoda that you can find at cheng ching lake,i just took it using the zoom of my point and shoot camera(i will try to get a more clearer view of it next time)

....soft color of the sky that fascinates my eyes very much

see this plane?this plane is going to philippines lol!

look!!!i tried to used my zoom(maximum)and this is what i got...love it...wait till i can purchase a new camera lol!it will be more bigger hehehe!

 

join the fun looking at different sky around the world at skywatch friday .